Any change is tough. We humans are quite rattled when our status quo is affected. As I get use to life in Karachi, with children, adapting to this change was proving to be challenging. My priority is my children.
As a consequence I suffered. There is never enough time for me to do stuff for myself. I became my last priority. Slowly my weight has started to increase. I am tired, exhausted and hence irritated. I know that my children’s achievements are suppose to make me feel happy and satisfied but they weren’t. I was sad inside.
As I tried to figure out on how to fix myself I learned that the greatest gift that I can give to my love ones is taking care of myself. When I am emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually whole and healthy then only will I able to take care of their needs.
I read on a blog and I quote “the water in your vessel will only flow when it is full. It is impossible to give out of nothing”. I needed to fill my vessel with things I liked.
I love baking I started with that first. I like writing my thoughts down. I become serious about making time to pen down my thoughts. I met with a group of friends to understand how to grow my blog so that I reach to bigger audience. I want to share my passion with people to encourage them to pursue their own passions.
I love walking but alas that was not happening. I had to use the car all the time. With kids’ activities I felt I had no time to walk. When we desperately want to do something and we cannot – we feel suffocated and resentful. I just couldn’t break the cycle. I felt frozen in time. Sounds strange but it was happening to me. I couldn’t think straight.
I needed help but I was too shy to ask someone. I struggled but I finally did ask for help.
An absolutely lovely and compassionate friend offered to help. She picked me up from my house and took me to the gym. She even helped me decide the best gym package. She patiently listened to my concerns and shared her experiences. It was comforting to know that I wasn’t alone in my feelings. It was comforting to know that others go through similar feelings.
I learned that asking for help didn’t mean I was weak it meant I was human.
If you are in a fix even if it’s a really tiny one don’t do it alone reach out to your friends and family. It may be hard but communication is the key to self care.
This is me with my joggers on ready for some exercise 😊